The Lid is OFF!!: It's comes down to the simple things

There is a phrase I say all the time..."I am just visiting this ________" . Fill in the blank with size, state of mind, sickness, or world. I used to say it on days when I was feeling overwhelmed. I now use it to to help me to stay grateful and to resist taking anything for granted. It is along the lines of This too shall pass. The good times pass just like the bad. Isn't it funny how when things are tough it seems it will NEVER get better? Unlike when they are great, it seems that it will NEVER or should never change.

I have observed that it is a modern thought process to believe that we are to never stop moving forward in a positive way. That the American dream is to always be moving forward in having and doing more. God forbid that we stop, slow down or even worse- go backwards! At any time, our health, finances, the people or anything we hold dear can leave us. For some, it is the loss of control that is so scary- for others it is the unknowing. For me- it is the fear of regret. That I did not do all that I could do with the gifts God gave me. That I did not spend enough time with the people that I love.

I am someone with an incredible amount of drive and energy. I need balance more than the normal person to stay happy. However, I allow my need to empty the tank, so to speak, to sabotage my balance on just about a daily basis. I have to give myself permission to do something as simple as watch TV, have lunch with a friend or read a book. I actually speak to myself in the third person. "Now Kellie, you are allowed to watch this show"......Nuts, right? My journey into the land of boundaries and balance has been a rocky one but, I have learned a great deal about myself. I do not likey everything I have learned- but there has been peace in the knowing. It allowed me to look at myself with soft eyes as well as the people around me. The things I do experience now in life have gone up considerably since this self prescribed shock treatment. Not grand adventure- that is what is used to take to get a rise out of me. Mostly, the simple things.

This has been a tough couple of weeks for some people in my circle. Me being the people pleaser...tough for me to witness. One of my gifts is encouragement. I usually can come up with a positive perspective for any situation and sprinkle some glitter, giggles and spirits on it and voila- problem much better! You bring me man trouble, not feeling pretty trouble, design on a dime drama and I can come up with a solution! But, you bring me a health crisis and my remedies fall way short.

I have recently been thinking about what would I do in a health crisis? Would I be able to stay positive? What would motivate the motivator? I think I will make a "keep calm and eat cheap chocolate pies" photo album/scrap book. I think it will remind me of the joyous feeling I had while I was visiting these moments. Sort of a "to do" list when I forget that happiness is always today's special on the menu. Damn! Should have made that when I was 25! Better late than never! Here is the start of it:)............